Well, here I am… I tried, I have to tell you, I really tried not to think of you, not to talk about you, not even to remember that one day you made me forget the entire world around me – and some days you still do –, but I failed, I failed every single time.
It’s crazy how easily you can get in my head without even try. Sometimes I get myself distracted, and then I see you here again, walking around my thoughts, messing with my mind, playing with my memories and bringing all of them back.
I know – only now, I confess – that you’re not the one that I’ve been dreaming about all of these years. You’re not the perfect guy that would show up on my life to save me and take me with you to a castle with a high tower. You know why you are not this guy? Because this is bullshit! And he doesn’t exist anyway.
So, you’re not perfect, not even close, and you know that. But you have this naughty way of yours that make me crazy. Your sexy smile, your magnetic eyes, your lovely hands and the sweet taste of your mouth… all of these little, and apparently simple things, are the ones that I most remember. The ones that I keep playing on repeat in my mind. I just can’t help it, because it’s stronger than me. You were stronger than me too. Sometimes I think it’s easier for you to forget about me than I forget you.
Your hot musical taste still shuffles with my soft playlists. And speaking of the devil… how hot you are, huh? Well… it’s best for my sanity not to think about this right now… Let’s keep going.
After all this time that I just couldn’t get you out of my head, I realized that you are a part of me that won’t ever go away. And I’m ok with that. I really am.
It’s true that you bring to light all of my dark side, my sins, and my bad thoughts. But, actually, that’s all we need sometimes. So thank you for letting this side of me appear. This nasty one. I like it. And I know you like it too. At least you used to like…
As I said in the beginning, I tried not to talk about you but turns out that you are the only thing I can talk about with property.